Day 19 - Completely Demoralized

I am literally crying right now. I just spent my entire morning writing this great piece on feelings of unworthiness and the Roman Empire. I went to copy and paste it here and hit the wrong key and instead copied over it and now it is gone...just gone. My vain attempts to reclaim it have resulted in me feeling like I want to vomit. Today, this is all I have to share. I am going to cry in my pillow now and try not to hate myself all day for making this stupid and while not fatal error, feeling like I kinda want to not get out of bed today. Fuck!