Manifesting...

I was never a big believer in it.  But this year I started something different.  I wrote out manifestation for all the areas of my life:

My book

Work

Love

Relationships

Travel

Money

Health

Spirit

Not necessarily in that order...

Anyway, I wrote them out and I now read them every single day. This is how I start my day.  I read what I am manifesting daily.  And I have to say, that not everything has changed about my life, but how I FEEL about my life has changed drastically.

The manifestations aren’t so much about what I am going to get, but rather how I am going to be.  And so it has become.  

I think, I have become more committed to getting this book out into the world;

To letting go of my career and allowing something new to happen,;

To being open to love finding its way to me and for me even though I still really struggle with the idea that I can have that;

My relationships have improved and are based on a more honest and loving foundation;

I invite travel into my life and man! Have I been traveling!  

I am working to change my relationship with money and spending and ego;

I am manifesting healthy living and vitality and aging;

I care deeply about my interiority and spiritual wellbeing and pay attention to that every day as if my life depends upon it, because it does...

My life still looks a lot like my old life...

I still live in the same house

I still drive the same car

I still have the same kids and parents

I still have a fuck ton of cats

I am still unemployed

Nothing is all resolved, but I feel amazing about my life and how I am living it.  I am not sure if it is all the manifesting but I have to say it has to be a little bit about that!  I feel so much more present in my life, so much more grounded in it and free.  Fuck do I feel free...

I am not sure that my life looks like I think it should or what I wanted, but I will tell you that every day is better than I could have ever imagined.  I have time to just be, to live, to write, to laugh, to read, to be present for those I love, to take care of myself.  I have time. And I see what a blessing all of this is for me, every day of my life.

I would have never given the time to reading all of this every day.  I would have never done that, but I wanted to be different and for me, this is how it has happened.  I wrote out some things and then read them daily to remind myself of who I am, where I am going and what is asked of me.  And somewhere in that process willingness was born and uplifted.

I am not manifesting certain things...I am cultivating a way of being and so even though most of the outside stuff has remained the same, I am quite rearranged on the inside.  I have manifested my way into a new consciousness and a new way of being.  And I am forever grateful...

Again, still...