What Chapter of My Life Do I Miss the Most?

That is such an easy question...

I do not miss any chapter of my life...because I am so in love with the one that I have right now.

I miss youth and taught skin.  I miss believing I have decades and decades to live and love and heal and enjoy.  But the chapters already written and lived, I don’t miss them.  I can see how they were the prerequisites to this life I have now which is the best life I have ever had...

I think, I am not entirely sure, but I think I lived as fully as I could all the chapters past.  And perhaps that is why I do not miss any of them.

There are times that I miss when my kids were little, but then I think of how tired I was and how lost I felt sometimes and I am grateful for the time but I am also grateful that it is no longer that time.  I enjoy my kids for who they are today...

It is kind of weird to think about all the different and divergent phases of my life and have no real desire to return to any of those times.  I honestly believe that the best is yet to come...

It has taken my life to for me to come into my own.  To heal myself to a point where I am this version of myself, still growing, changing and evolving while also kind of loving the journey.  A journey that has not been without pain and loss and heartbreak, but I guess I have come to see those difficulties as the pathway towards this inner peace.  I love who I am today.  And the more deeply I live in this place within myself the more love I seem to have for others.

I am going to call it progress to ponder the other chapters of my life and not wish to return to them.  I am going to see my life as this great unraveling...an untangling, where right now this is the freest I have ever felt, the most evolved I have ever been and the most me I have had the audacity to become.

Some people live their whole lives chained, staked like a dog in a yard, tethered to addiction, abuse and soul sickness.  I know, I have been that dog, for sure.  But sometimes, we break free and move forward into a life that is better than anything we have ever known...

And I am so very grateful to be living mine right now.

Again, still...