Joy...

I just woke up today with joy.  Not always the way I wake up, but today, I was blessed with this burgeoning sense of unadulterated joy.  I walked outside my cabin and was blessed with swallows swooping here and there, only to find there is nest under the eave of my cabin.  They have the sweetest little “eep, eep”. 

I got to see that today before I even had coffee.

I am picking up Stacy in a couple of hours and we are off to Vancouver for the weekend.  We are both quite excited!

My daughter is well and good, and home however briefly. It is good to know she is there, even if I am not.

My son graduates boot camp tomorrow. That is a sentence I never thought I would write...

I am on a farm.  I think I really need to be on a farm.  Life is just better on a farm.  (Of course, I mean my definition of farm, where we grow wild flowers and blackberries, and no animals are ever hurt, in anyway whatsoever).

This longing for a simpler life, quiet, away, peaceful.  That only grows stronger while I am on the road.  I spend hours and hours of my travel looking at places that could be home.  It is like I am a lost soul looking for a body to inhabit.  Mind you, I don’t want to be this way, I just am.

I sit in my cedar shingled cabin with rustic hewn wood, whitewashed, old windows open without screens.  Which was only slightly problematic...I have only a couple of mosquito bites this morning.  I thought about my decision to sleep with windows open, no screens and my need for night air was greater than the desire to not have bug bites.  These are the kinds of decisions in my life I want to make.

Life is pretty amazing.  I feel happy, I feel joyous and man oh man, do I feel free.

I guess what I want to say today is thank you.  Thank you to whatever goodness brought me this far in this life.  Thank you for this amazing gift of my life.  Thank you for all the people, even that one, who have taught me so much about living, loving and everything in between.  Thank you for this day, right here, the next 24 hours where I am alive, happy and free.  

I am not sure if it gets better than this, but if it never does, I want to go on record saying today, this moment, it was enough.  All of it.  I am so grateful for this life and my part in it.  Thank you for this life, this chance, this peace, this opportunity, I will endeavor to do my best with it.  To show up for others and spread the good cheer.  I will help where I can and smile when that is all there is to do.

Today I will travel with a full and grateful heart.  Not like I don’t travel that way most days...today just feels extra, in all the right ways.

Again, still...