Grand Canyon, Again...

Well, it is happening...end of August, Jodi and I will hike the Grand Canyon rim to rim.  I can’t wait.  I have hiked it, rafted it, twice, but never hiked rim to rim.  I am not sure how my neck is going to do, but I guess we are going to find out...

I feel like this has been calling me for a long time.  This adventure, this trek, this task.  Losing my dad and scattering his ashes over the Grand Canyon made me feel like hiking it rim to rim was something I needed and wanted to do.  So off we go!

It is good I will have some time to get myself in shape, start hitting the mountains of Ojai to prepare myself for the 21.4 mile odyssey.  I am going to need to break in those hiking boots so that our entire adventure is not a cryking one...

Long walk, part of gift.  And I need something physical and mental and challenging and something to look forward now.  I am a little lost.  Actually, I am a lot lost.  But I am working my way through it all.  Slowly.  At least this is what I tell myself every day...

Maybe we can throw in lower Antelope Canyon too just for fun!  We shall see.  I just know that I am excited for the adventure with my adventurous friend who Is also transitioning to an empty nest.

Admittedly, I do not know what this next chapter of my life looks like.  And if I don’t do something, it will look like me binge watching shows on my couch with my cats and eating ice cream for dinner every night...and while that is not a bad life, it isn’t the one I am looking to live.

I feel like I lost my mojo.  And I really have no idea how to get it back.  How do you rekindle your joie de vive?  How do you come into your own?  How do you close chapters in your life and move forward?  I mean, I have done it before and it was hard.  But this feels overly hard.  This feels overwhelming and soul crushing. I know it is just the next test...but I feel like I am foundering, well, because I am.

So this trip, this trek will be my motivation over the next few months, to prepare, to get myself ready.  To move forward with some sense of purpose...to trudge the road of happy destiny...rim to rim.