Relaxacation...

I do not usually take relaxacations.  I usually take jam packed adventures that are replete with all kinds of driving, travel and fun.  And I love those, in fact, my soul craves those kinds of vacations.  But this one has been different.  I really have nowhere to be and the only things I am interested in seeing are: my son, Leslie and the ocean.  And since I booked a place on the ocean, the later takes care of itself, no effort required, like at all.

The weather was spotty the first two days but it cleared yesterday and I was able to spend the entire day lounging by the ocean and pool.  It was lovely.  Just good vibes, sunshine and peace.  So much peace.

In the afternoon, I did some step work with a sponsee and then I took a three hour nap.  I am not even sure who I am anymore.  I never nap, unless sick, and I am not sick.  I guess I have done a good job of locking into this relaxacation.  I finished my book and so far trending a book a week!  That means by year’s end I will have read upwards of 52 books in 2025!  I love that.  And perhaps relaxacations are going to be more of a thing going forward.

There is a lot to be said for the lack of schedules, deadlines, phone calls and must's and have to's.  I am grateful for the sun’s position indicating what is next and the tide being the only clock I need.

I sit here now writing, the sun rising across the sugar sand beach, starkly white, making the ocean look bluer and more crystalline.  Another day in paradise.  I guess one thing I missed in this life is that paradise occupies a physical plane but its truer existence resides in our minds.  I can be in the middle of a work day, grinding and find it, and I can be on a desolate but gorgeous beach and not find it.  It all depends on my mental state and the thoughts that come and go. And the ones I attached myself to.

Relaxacation is also a state of mind and body.  I have to organize my mind to a place of surrender to let go the have to’s and the ought of’s.  I have to move myself to a place of peace internally if I want the place I am visiting to reflect that back to me.

On this relaxacation, I am reminded that it is all about what I hold in my mind and spirit that dictates my own experience.  I have to be present, still and positive for my outer world to reflect my inner world.  And sometimes, that outer world will refuse to match.  And sometimes there is nothing I can do about that. Nothing but to seek alignment when it all feels like it is out of control.

If I make my internal landscape a place where peace and joy and serenity resides, then I will find it out there regardless of where I am.  And the more I seek serene locales, the more peace I shall find within and without.

I leave tomorrow, early, for DC for week for the week.  I am looking forward to seeing my coworkers and my friends.  I feel tanned, rested and ready to begin regular life again after my lovely respite soaking up the loveliness of Florida’s Gulf Coast.

I loved my time with Logan and Leslie.  I have soaked up the love I feel from them and done my best to send it back to them ten fold.  I have meandered the water’s edge, enjoying the subtle variants from West Coast shore walking, and here.  I have marveled at the stark whiteness of the sugar sand.  I have enjoyed its feel between my toes and the ease with which it washes off.  I have enjoyed the lack of tar and rocks, even though at home, I have an appreciation for both of those things. Ok, well not so much the tar.

This relaxacation felt like love.  Given and received.  It flowed freely to and from and I feel like I have reserves that I lacked prior to my arrival.  I took full advantage of the quiet and alone time to rest, sleep and sit idly doing absolutely nothing but staring at the sea watching the tide roll in and out.

Looks like another gorgeous day is dawning and I am going to go begin to soak it in and up...relaxacation here I come!  Ok, wait maybe that is more for my other type of vacation...perhaps for this one, I just marvel at the ground beneath my feet and the deep well of love and gratitude that wells up within me.

Again, still...

Even the jellies are feeling the loving vibe...