The Adventure of Everyday Living...

Sometimes life is humdrum and boring. Sometimes it feels like a rollercoaster that is going to make you hurl. Sometimes it is both things all at once.  One moment you are feeling ok, then the bottom falls out and you are in free fall.  What I realize, now more than ever, is that everyday is an adventure!  I wake up and I think I know what will happen, but I do not.  I think I know, but I don’t.

This is the adventure of everyday living.  And it provides us an opportunity every single day of our lives.  Even if what we think will happen, happens, there is still adventure.  I mean how much more exciting can one day get than to have everything you think is going to happen, happen???  

Think about that for a moment...you have a day planned and it all goes according to that plan.  That is pretty incredible in and of itself.  No one derails you, sideswipes you, hinders or delays you.  That is a pretty awesome feat, if you think about how many millions of ways one day can get fucked.

Then there are the days that start off with a bang and then just bang all fucking day.  It is just one thing after another, new doors opening, doors being slammed shut.  It is up and down and sideways and all the things, all at once.

For most of us, it is a mixed bag.  We get the calm, predictability we all are so content with, and then we get upended and are given the gift of seeing that when things fall apart, we are gifted new opportunities for growth, change and development that would have never occurred had we stayed in our lane and had the day we planned to have.

I think, for me, right now, I see the magic in the unprepared.  I see the happenstance of the day not going the way I think it will at all.  I see the joy and purpose of the unexpected.  I am in it and life is a grand adventure every single minute.  And when I view life like this, life is fun, exciting and rewarding.

Of course, there is too much of a good thing. Too much change all at once can leave one feeling overwhelmed, scared, out of sorts and uneasy...but when I frame the current situation into a narrative that provides a wide berth to life being lifey...well then I get to live an exciting, dramatic, fun existence, no matter what kind of fresh hell is raining down upon me.

And recently, life has been giving me a run for my money! Fucksticks, there has been a lot of life going on over here.  And death.  And loss.  And grief.  And joy.  And connection.  And happiness.  And love.  All of the things, all of the time.  Which has left me with this feeling of magic in the every day.  And blessing.  So much blessing.  I feel so fucking lucky right now.  That I am me and not some other people I used to know.  I have this life, hard as it has been recently, and not some one else’s life.  I am so grateful to be me, on the bleeding edge of change so it would seem right now.

I am grateful I can find moments even within the hard and sad and difficult that are amazingly tender, real and honest.  I am beyond grateful for all the wonderful people who show up in my life, that more than make up for some of the fuckers that are currently exiting my life.  I do not wish to be anyone else.  I trust God has a plan for all of this and I am on a “need to know” basis.

Today I am embracing the grand adventure of everyday living.  It is real, unpredictable and fast paced.  And it is all ok in this moment.  And I am super grateful to have this unshakeable faith that everything, even the stuff that is super painful and hard, is happening for my higher good.  It always has and I see no reason why it shouldn’t continue...right action follows right action...always.

Again, still...